Sometimes i feel as if I’ve traded one addiction for another.
Every time I like or get close enough to a girl to be intimate with in anyway (kissing, holding hands, etc…) I get scared and can’t make the first move or any move. I can’t stand that I get so nervous and scared. I’m ready to like someone enough to do these things with. But I cant make a move to do so. Instead I push away or friend-zone people. Jesus I wish I didn’t.
I am finally free.
I’m emotionally drained. I’m exhausted. I can’t say its a bad thing. It’s helped me grow…push my limits.
What the fuck have I done. Why the fuck am I here.